Tuesday, April 21, 2009

More "dream act news"...why dont i give a sh*t?!

i think immigration news is no longer effecting me. I read today that more colleges are pushing to allow immigrants to go to college with in-state tuition and financial aid and possibly, legalization. so why don't i care anymore? i think cause i have heard this since i graduated and every disappointing year the bill gets shot out, i get into a low that is only explainable as depression. I do care if they pass a bill...until then i will take it as rumor. that's it. the shortest blog,

Thursday, April 02, 2009

The "one in ten are using food stamps" debate (and i say using cause i don't wanna insult the ones that truly don't "abuse" it)

I woke up this morning from a cold-flu-pneumonia (i pray not but cant go to doctor) spell i have had for almost two weeks to read on my blackberry (YEAH, you thought Mexican immigrants don't know tech!!!) about the statistic that one in every ten Americans is on food stamps now...i would like to sympathize but i have seen the bad side of food stamps. not just the obvious transferring them for cigarettes or drugs or other non needed items but people (and i mean AMERICAN CITIZENS) that take the food stamps and use them just to horde food. they have plenty of cans of tomato juice cans and whatever they get for free still in the cupboard (sometimes going stale or bad) and they go get some more the next week. And to make matters worse, they are insulted if they cant get what they want...What ever happen to beggars can't be choosers. To make matters worse, one particular person that does so has plenty of money to piss away on stupid sh*t that they never use and complain about having bills and so on. It saddens me cause i know this story is going to get flipped on illegals but so be it. you allow them to, they are going to. It pisses me off to high hell that people can abuse a system that is made to help the truly unfortunate and see it as their right to mooch off the government. It's even more hurtful when i think about how many times i did not have food or knew i was not gonna have money for a week so I'd decide to call it a "fasting" instead of admitting to myself that I'm just broke (why i ate top ramen with chop sticks...to feel like i was eating asian food instead of noodles in a McDonalds cup). I did that so i could never have it rubbed in my face that i took food stamps or benefits. Sure, i vomited stomach acids sometimes but i maned up and took it. why can't YOU moochers admit to your faults. It made me laugh when i saw that they get about 100 dollars per person a month in food stamps...damn, that's a good month of food for me. Lemme total it up

$20 - 100 top ramen (the staple for broke folks)
$10 - 8-10 packs of Hot Dogs (to put in the ramen or eat alone)
$12 - 6 loaves of bread (AND WHAT THE F*CK!!! REALLY 2 BUCKS FOR BREAD?!)
$20 - 20 cheap brand t.v. dinners (u know, the brand that got recalled...banquet)
$10 - 20 cheap pot pies (same TV dinner brand)

$28 - to piss away on fast food when I'm not home...and a few candy bars (ay, i got a sweet tooth)

this is a real budget when i made enough money to buy so much and you know what...i never was hungry (and i eat ALOT).

So either the government is supplementing the wrong foods or I'm just that damn good at budgeting food?! C'mon. And like i said, it ain't just food...it's section 8 homes where people rent all the rooms (as told not to by the section 8 rules), unemployment checks (cause under the table work is not reported) and other government benefits. I'm not bombing on anyone that is under these benefits. im telling the ones that take advantage. The sad thing is, the negative always sees the light first. not the ones that made it out of section 8 to have a business or unemployed that took the EDD check to barely make it and bounce back (my ex fiancee) or the cal grant kids that become the future of this nation...change has to be done in all of this to help this nation. Accountability, not bureaucracy. Responsibility, not prosecuting. We must be the ones to check ourselves before we truly do wreck ourselves.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

How the internet can come back and haunt you (not necessarily but read on)

For starters, i will begin by thanking one of the few people that i am not related to or knew me enough for reminding me i had a blog (thnx for the coffees..is that how you spell multiple coffee?!). That kind of starts this blog off. I was working on a roof in the town i used to live in for years. The people of the house were nice. My working partner (dunno what to call them cause they are not my workers) and I would get invited to eat. My friend could talk but not work that well so i continued the job. when the lady talked to me alone, somehow i mentioned something about immigration and it began talks about that. when she asked me (curiously, not negatively) i was quick to deny (a reflex...i wish it's a joke but it's not). i guess some days went by after we finished a part of the job and we had to go back. she mentioned she googled me and found this blog...I didn't freak out cause i kind of assumed she knew why i lied in the first place but i was more worried cause how i speak in this blog is me uncensored. my own mother does not know about this blog (although she should) cause i wish people to not see the activist Paisa but Amos Iriqui (never hid it before, why start now) the person just living life. I flashed in my mind when she said some of the things i wrote here were kind of (she left it blank cause im guessing she did not have a word to say very unfuckin candid). it embarrassed me but it also reminded me what i wanted out of this site...maybe it did not show her anything new but may have showed her a new face of immigration. one that talks to you like the person on the bus or a co-worker. not like a "foreigner" and have to translate accented english or learn spanish. some of our thoughts are lost in translation...mine are not.

this is why it haunted me but it haunted me cause i pushed away this blog for so long...read on

So if anyone has been or has read this blog, i take way big gaps of hiatus (even when i began) for this simple reason...I am talking about a topic I am living at the same time. Whether you people realise it, some of these discussions tear me up inside. It's something beyond of passion that I speak on. I wish i was stronger and could just keep haranguing, cussing, and blowing up (like rush limbaugh on a good pill rage...i mean democrat rage) but it's not good for me...not for anyone. I will do my best to keep updating but I kind of have to brace myself before i do (not about the topic i choose cause i always have more than a book to write about and i have thought it over and over before i even think about putting it online). It's like wanting to swim in nut freezin (sorry, will try to limit) cold temperatures. whether you want to go in, you have to prepare to take that cold. A cold that sometimes i forget how cold it is (until i read old blogs...ouch. sometimes i was hella pissed on them).

Don't get me wrong, i do like talking about it cause of the benefit i think it has on people that actually find it, they learn that not all immigrants to this country have it easy or so perfectly clear. that we too have dreams and wishes but some of those wishes are so ignored, abused and unappreciated by citizens (LIKE JURY DUTY!!!). The thing is, it's harsh to open up so much. I wish i didn't have to say how pissed i am cause i made garbage this day or how is it that i gave so much credit to government and they can forget about people like me, but i do. it's gotta be like reporters (well, the real ones) reporting depressing things after another after another. over time it's gotta affect them. but imagine that reporter had to report being in that situation. being in that fire, being in the shooting, being in the hospital ward with salmonella cause you ate the peanut butter. That is my reporting. And i do it on the high hopes that it can affect someone. that's it. no fame, no big rallies when i get (if i get) deported, just that they know we people...the ones in immigration limbo as i consider ourselves... do try to function but are confused on what is the next move for us.


thanks again if you read this...and don't be afraid to email...i wont spam

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

IF you can vote, then vote, damnit!

if you have read this blog enough, you know i am an immigrant. I'm in such a special situation that prohibits me from voting...it's not like i dont want to. it really kills me when people that can vote just say "it doesn't matter" but those same a**es b***h and complain that "the economy is so tough" and "my house is getting repo'ed" or, "bush is f***n up" well, shut the f***k up! you never tried to make a difference. even if you at least voted for bush, you can say you were mislead or something but for those that can and do not even try...it DOES matter. right now there could be a historic election where we either have the first black president that wants to change or the nation's oldest president that is a "maverick" (and i am so sick of that word...if you are such a maverick, then SHOW IT DONT JUST SAY IT...CAUSE I CAN KEEP SAYING "I AM A CITIZEN" BUT IT DOES NOT HAPPEN JUST CAUSE I KEEP SAYING IT...). I watched every debate and take notes (yeah, wetbacks CAN write) and maybe neither one cares for my situation...idunno but that's not the important thing right now. illegal or not, people are losing jobs by the second and immigrants can't be blamed this time. the dollar is turning to the new peso, food cost is going up (that's MY stock market...before colbert said it i saw top ramen go from 10 cents to 25 cents...the cheapest meal for college students). if you are a baller (financially secure), you don't care for that but if you got a family, you work for a living (check by check) or even own a home, I beg of you...VOTE!!! if not, trade with me...see how it feels to not have the right to make a change. if it does not make a difference, al gore lost by such a (shady) close call....maybe we would already be solar powered by now instead of having a higher deficit and crap stock value (maybe not even in war...maybe some of the people i knew would not have had to die for "freedom" bulls**t excuses)


DO SOMETHING!!!! MAKE IT HAPPEN!

Thursday, October 02, 2008

FINALLY BACK (like crack in the 80's...all up ur noses!)


just to let cats know, i've been blocked from posting cause i needed stupid gmail account (yeah, it took this long for me to decide to get one...dont trust them...) newhoo, i will get new fresh news on this as soon as i can piggyback to a stable connection (yeah, paisas cannot get cable or dsl cause we have no credit but for some weird reason we can buy houses...i did not get that memo or else i would have been in a pad). if anyone is pissed cause i've been slackin, f*ck u. it took u this long to catch on?! email and let me know!!!l1paisarap@gmail.com and if u in texas, i hear someone put one of my tracks on a mixtape. i will post new info on that as soon as i find out myself (i got a call from soneone about that and it was me...suprise. neways do ur thing and i still say fuck icee cats with frozen hearts...dont tell me ur doing ur job, that was nazi cats' excuses and we are not in the 1940's, faggot!

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Bush is president: What is in it for us?... The same for citizens NOTHING!!!
a note on the recent election:
It's funny cause i've met so many people talking about this issue about the presidential candidates. BS and typical stuff but there was a lack of something... A POINT!!! none of these fn candidates actually said "i'm gonna do this" or "i'm gonna do that"! it reminded me of school elections cause no one knew any real reason to vote for this and that except that we know this guy!! ALL immigration issues were completely ignored like the recent DREAM act, or the licenses in California. WE STILL WAITING FOR SOMETHING!!! My boss did make a good point recently to me: "It's harder for you cause you've been here most of your life so you expect them to do something for you" True, i do see that they partially owe me cause i obeyed their rules and crap but screw me, if my shit's solved, there are many more still stuck. that's wjy i piss and complain. If i don't, who will. (I always reference african americans with immigration but here's another) If rosa parks didn't give a fuck for others, she would have sat her ass to the back. Guess what? she didn't. and too bad that i can't just piss some fools off like that but sometimes even a woman has more balls than med do. I ain't complaining for myself, I'm complaining for the ones that can't say anything or if they do it gets lost in translation. I'm giving it to you from what i see, hear and feel everyday. I saw a guy running across from me when i went to go get dinner 2 days ago. I saw to see what he was running from and it was an accident. He crashed into a car, got out the car and ran so the cops won't mess with him. I know they have no deportation powers but even I don't like to take that chance. Lord knows if guy had kids and everything could go more sour if he takes a trip to the south than it can for me.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Immigrants and Crime: Not an excuse, an explination.

Gangs are obviously a big problem among urban communities no matter what race or background. The main candidates for gangs are people wanting to be something and saying f-k the law at the same time. these people feel (or know) that society will not accept them as a part of them. This category easily fits immigrants except that we don't say f-k the law. They say f-k immigrants, we respond. that's different. What i am getting at is that gangs are an easy way out for many but wiht the growing number of immigrants in the country and legislation making it harder to work legit. Maybe not many would think that immigrants wouuld do so (especially most being 30-50) but surprise! recently there were various busts around San Diego by the ICE task force (immigration and customs enforcement). They got 13 immigrants all beiong affiliated to gangs and not all pee-wees. Screw the issue of gangs, what about the smart ones that somehow knew better but get found in a college by extremists (i really don't know the appropriate name) offering money for mission. Screw it, offer them to get their family out the slums for a suicide mission and i bet they might consider it. Is it crazy or desperation. You tell me. That's why we must help immigrants not enclose them. give them their opportunity to work. they will pay taxes. You get more bees with honey then the sh-t you fling at us.